Monthly Archives: November 2012

Trust me, I’m the sunscreen.

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Much of the Christmas season is spent worrying over what to buy for your significant other, your kids, relatives, friends, and co-workers. You think and you shop and eventually decide on some sweater that won’t fit next year or a toy that will be forgotten in a months time. I propose a change! This year instead of focusing on Christmas gift let’s focus on New Year’s resolutions.

Think about this: Ultimately the people who really love and/or care about you just want to see you happy and when you really are genuinely happy you spread it to others around you, so don’t think that’s ultimately the best gift you could give to yourself and those who love you?

There are 32 days until next year, that means 32 days of planning to get a fresh start to the new year, to improve the quality of your life, and to map out a plan for happiness. A New Year’s resolution is a commitment that a person makes to one or more personal goals, projects, or the reforming of a habit. A key element to a New Year’s Resolution that sets it apart from other resolutions is that it is made in anticipation of the New Year and new beginnings. People committing themselves to a New Year’s resolution generally plan to do so for the whole following year. This lifestyle change is generally interpreted as advantageous.

You can do fun things to help you prepare for a New Year and a fresh start. One thing I am doing is…

Make a “Future Heather” book. I got this idea from the movie “The last Holiday”. This will be a book composed creatively of things I wish to see or do in the future. I may make a page with photos of Australia because this is somewhere I’d like to go at some point. I may make a page full things I’d like to learn. A page with pictures of a home I’d like to own….You get the idea. This is a fun, creative project that may help you visualize what you want, and if you look at it often, the visualization will spark your brain to do the things you need to do in order to achieve these goals. (Beware… if you happen to cut out a picture of a bride and groom and cut and paste your and someone else’s face, be careful where you leave your book, if that someone see’s their picture pasted over a grooms face, they will probably get super freaked out, and ect…)

There is really no end to the things you could do to prepare yourself to be a more bright and shiny you. You can work out. You can stop smoking. You can change jobs. You can get more education…..but the thing that all those things and endless others, have in common is that any of them will improve the quality of your life, make you healthier, and happier. So, I encourage you to spend more time on this for the next 32 days than you do stressing about shopping. Improving your life WILL benefit   the ones who love you…

And I leave you with this……You’re Welcome!

Wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis or reliable then my own meandering experience.  I will dispense this advice….now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind, you won’t understand the power and beauty of your youth until they’ve faded, but trust me in 20 years, you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future, or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.

The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind: the kind that blindsides you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts; don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don’t waste your time on jealousy.  Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind.  The race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive; forget the insults. (if you succeed in doing this, tell me how).

Keep your old love letters; throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life.  The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives; some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of Calcium.  Be kind to your knees — you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t.  Maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t.  Maybe you’ll divorce at 40; maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.

Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either.  Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body: use it every way you can.  Don’t be afraid of it or what other people think of it; it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.

Dance…even if you have no where to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions (even if you don’t follow them).

Do not read beauty magazines; they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents; you never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings: they’re your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but what a precious few should hold on.  Work hard to bridge the gaps and geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.

Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old; and when you do, you’ll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you.  Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you’ll have a wealthy spouse, but you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair or by the time you are 40, it will look like you’re 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it.  Advice is a form of nostalgia; dispensing it is a way of wishing the past from the disposal–wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts, and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me, I’m the sunscreen.

Giving Thanks.

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I know a lot of people who have been posting on Facebook something they are thankful for everyday through the month of November, well I am putting it all together. It makes me feel insanely happy to see all the love , laughter, and light in my life, all in one spot!
Happiest Thanksgiving!

 

1)      I am thankful for my Un-shakable optimism.

2)      I am thankful for my beautiful Children and their health.

3)      I am thankful for creativity and the freedom to show it.

4)      I am thankful for my Mother’s unconditional love.

5)       I am thankful that we have a roof over our head and warm beds to sleep in.

6)      I am thankful for laughter.

7)      I am thankful to have a job that I love so much!

8)      I am thankful for ALL my family.

9)      I am thankful for transportation.

10)   I am thankful for my sobriety.

11)   I am thankful for the forgiveness my family had given me.

12)   I am thankful for music and for what it does to my soul.

13)   I am thankful for all the love in my life.

14)   I am thankful to have a handful of amazingly wonderful, warm friends.

15)   I am thankful to have such a strong Mother and all the knowledge she has passed to me.

16)   I am thankful for the support I have.

17)   I am thankful for courage.

18)   I am thankful for the second chance I have been given to be a great Mother.

19)   I am thankful for the quality of my life.

20)   I am thankful for the ability to sing a dance.

21)   I am thankful for yummy, yummy food.

22)   I am thankful for every time one of my babies grabs my hand and holds it.

23)   I am thankful for hugs.

24)   I am thankful to have a kind, warm, loving man in my life.

25)   I am thankful that God never gives me more than I can handle.

26)   I am thankful that I can handle SO much!

27)   I am thankful for the little things.

28)   I am thankful for education.

29)   I am thankful for tickling!!!

30)   I am thankful to be alive.

Fear VS. Heather….

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I have yet to determine the origin of this defect, but I have ALWAYS been afraid to succeed. I am well aware that if I put my mind to something whole-heartedly I would without a doubt soar above expectation. I have always had an UN-shakable optimistic attitude, the skill of connecting with people on an intimate level, and I pick up on things freakishly fast. I have brilliant ideas. The one thing that has always been in my way…..is ME. I have pondered many times where this defect came from but always came up empty handed.

My addiction was the perfect meal for this defect.  I labeled myself an addict, and so to me, I was already worthless. By using I was no good so I automatically had no expectation to live up too. This may have been the cause of me falling some deep.

Now that I have remained sober for quite some time and my head is clear, I enjoy thinking about my defects. Trying to pinpoint them, learn all about them, and then figure out how to improve myself. This is something I would have not dare done during my addiction, for that would have been far to ugly to bare living with. I would have been scared to take such a good, hard look at myself but then again, at that time in my life, everything was too scary. Fear ruled my life. And that is what I want to talk about today, FEAR. During all this self discovery and just from observation it is clear to me that many people, some very close to me, are also living their life in fear. Fear that restricts them from actually living.

Let me give you a little example of how fear was affecting one  aspect of my life. Every single time I got into a relationship the following would happen: After a week or so, I would find myself needing more and more attention. More phone calls and more text messages. I would start to get angry with the other person for not fulfilling my demands. Because of this, the other would start to fill as though they would NEVER be able to satisfy me and then after much fighting, would give up and leave. For along time I thought all this happened because of a flaw I had, that I was Voracious. I even wrote a blog about it, but I was wrong. See what I was doing all this time was being scared. If the other person was constant in contact with me I didn’t have to fear that I was being abandoned. It was never about needing attention or being Voracious, it was about my fear of being abandoned. And, it wasn’t until I met someone that loved me enough to give me patience and teach me to have faith in him, that I realized all that. I ruined countless relationships because of fear.

“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.”
Eleanor Roosevelt

Of course the first fear in which one must overcome is being able to take a good, hard look at yourself….on the inside. This may be one of the hardest fears to conquer, as it is difficult to see and accept ones true self. After you are able to do this and you can start to pick apart all your flaws and fears and figure out how to improve yourself and the quality of your life. Here are a few helpful hints:

1. Taking small steps

This is good for fear that can seem overwhelming at first. For instance the strong feeling – it can almost feel like a flight or fight-response – just before doing public speaking or asking someone out for a date. If you’re for instance nervous socially you might not feel able to ask people out on dates right away. The fear of being rejected and that others might think less of you if you get turned down can make many of us feel unable to ask the question.

The solution is to take small steps instead. Steps like first just saying hello to people. Or starting to talk more to people online via forums and Instant Messaging. And then try to be more involved in conversations to exercise your conversation-muscles. I guess one could say that you gradually desensitize yourself to social situations or whatever you are afraid of. Or, seeing it in a more motivating way, building courage and expanding your comfort zone in this part of your life (which is something that often bleeds over to other areas of life too.)

So, identify your fear. Then make a plan with some smaller steps you can take to gradually lessen your discomfort.

2. Getting some concrete, positive motivation

Getting to the stage where you really feel that you need to stop waiting – or need stop reading one personal development book after another – and take action can take some time. One way to get moving is to replace some of your negative thoughts – that creates negative feelings – with clear, positive reasons to get going.

Take 5 minutes. Grab a piece of paper and a pen. Write down all the wonderful ways you can come up with how making this change will improve your life.

Lack of motivation can get you stuck while contemplating how much your life sucks. If you don’t become clear on you motivation it can become hard to get going and knowing why you are actually need to change.

Writing down all the wonderful things you will gain in your life by overcoming this fear can be powerful. Focus on those positive things that get you motivated and inspired. Revisit your page of paper when you feel discouraged, uncomfortable or afraid. Even if it loses it’s inspiring effect gradually, it can be the initial trigger to un-stick you. The spark to get you started to take those first actions that sends you into an upward-spiral of thought and action.

3. Seeing failure and rejection in a new light

Often it’s easier to not do something because we fear failure and rejection. We may fear failure when starting on a new career-path. And rejection from friends, family and the people around us if we fail. Or we might be afraid of being rejected when asking someone out.

However, the definition of failure we are brought up with in society might not be the best and most useful to have. If you look at the most successful people you quickly notice that they have a different response to failure than the more common one.

They don’t take failure or rejection too seriously. They know it’s not the end of the world if they fail. Instead they look at each failure and see the good part about: what they can learn from it and improve next time.

They have an abundance-mentality. They know that if their first business-venture fails it feels like crap for a while but it’s okay in the long run. They learn from it and then they try again.

If they are rejected for a date, do they give up? Probably not. They know that next week or the week after they might find someone else that’s interesting and ask them out. Even better!

The day you learned to ride a bike you fell of it time and time again. But you just brushed yourself of, perhaps cried for minutes or two and then you got up on the bike again. And towards the afternoon, or the next day, you probably started to become pretty good at riding your bike.

The same applies here. You have work on your skills to sharpen them. See failure or rejection not as something incredible negative that might end your life if it strikes. Redefine it in your mind to lessen the negative emotional impact and the fear. See failure simply as feedback on what you need to improve on. Listen to the advice the failure gives you and you will improve. And success will come.

4. Being in the now

What this means is to keep yourself steadily in the now. Not letting your thoughts and emotions run away to the future or the past. That doesn’t mean that you don’t make plans, of course. You might think about asking someone out. You make plans on when to do it or perhaps what to say.

But being in the now means to not get your mind stuck in a kind of psychological and emotional head space that is placed in the past or future. It means not dwelling on what has gone wrong before and what could go wrong tonight or tomorrow. Such thinking will only create and ramp up your fear to the point where you feel unable to do anything. And you just feel like running away.

Instead, make your plans. Then just be and don’t think about the future. Focus on the now and what needs to be done now. The future will be the now soon enough. And when you arrive there it will be much easier to get things done when you have created a minimal amount of stress and fear within your mind.

Whenever you feel fear, your mind is often dragged into a hypothetical, future scenario where you think you might fail. Your brain is over-analyzing a possible situation, which leads for many of us, to a negative, downward spiral of thoughts. This expands and empowers your fear to the point where you become almost paralyzed. So, how do you beat the fear in such situations?

You stop fighting. You surrender.

How to surrender:

Let me explain. By surrender, I don’t mean that you should give up and go home.

Instead, when you feel fear then accept the feeling. Don’t try to fight it or to keep it out (like many of us have learned throughout life).

Say yes to it.

Surrender and let it in.

Observe the feeling in your mind and body without labeling or judging it. If you let it in – for me the feeling then often seems physically locate itself to the middle of my chest – and just observe it for maybe a minute or two something wonderful happens. The feeling just vanishes.

As you surrender to the fear instead of fighting it the negative energy will pass through you and your body will release it. And you can return to focusing on the now once again.

Focusing on the now not only reduces fear but also increases the chances of you succeeding as your mind is focused, your confidence isn’t shattered and your thoughts become clear. It also makes it easier to succeed because when you are in the now you are not that self-conscious – something that quickly can lead to insecurity – but instead focused on the outside world and people you are interacting with.

I highly recommend reading the Power of Now and/or A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle to learn about more practical advice for being in the now. Both books are excellent and have, for me, been extremely revealing and helpful.

5. Redefining you, me and reality

To change yourself and overcoming fear you have to be prepared and willing to redefine yourself.

You have to be willing to try these things out for yourself and keep practicing. No one can do it for you. But if you do that you can make what may seem to you to be big progress pretty quickly. And when you get used to it and these things become more and more habitual you will start to do them naturally.

But since it seems that just about everyone is addicted to their own personality, consistent change in behavior will still probably be kinda slow and gradual.

An addiction to positivity can lessen the fear in your mind of what might happen in a new, unfamiliar situation or how someone might respond to what you are saying. A negative view of the world can create fear and hold you back. But if you, for instance, become more positive many of the people you meet will respond in a similar manner. In general, no matter how you think about the world, people are often like a somewhat of a mirror for you.

Change will be hard if you deep down still think: I am this shy or negative or scared person. “That’s just who I am”, you tell yourself. “Always have been, always will be”. And will be the truth for you as long as you think it’s the truth. If you are prepared and ready to change, you can however rewrite what you perceive as the truth about yourself and your personality, thoughts, actions and emotions.

Something I’ve recently started to think about and apply is what’s called Subjective Reality. Although I don’t fully understand it yet – I think – basically what it means is that there is no separation on the world. There is no you and I separated from each other (like in the more common worldview many of us are accustomed to).

Instead we are one.

You might not fully understand it or internalize it – I haven’t yet – but just going into a conversation with perspective that you and the other(s) are connected and really just one can be very useful.

When you apply this perspective on the world it’s a lot harder feeling fear. Or being mean or unkind. Just like it’s hard to do those things to yourself. Without the perspective of separation it seems like you – almost automatically – become calmer, kinder, less fearful and more open. It feels like you are naturally connected to the rest of the world.

Thought for the day:

What is it that I fear? How is it affecting my life? What holds me back? How can I conquer my fear so I can improve the quality of my life?